I Can’t Take This Any Longer
It is bitter and very painful to experience. From the moment that a wrongdoing is made public and the guilty party is revealed, the shame that is felt by that person is sickening. Depending on the heart condition and character of the person that committed the sin, shame can seem to be so strong that the person feels that life will never be the same. And truthfully, if the wrong that was done is serious enough, that may be true!
I can only remember three times that someone I had known as an attender in the church I pastored was arrested for a serious charge against them. In all three cases, they were found guilty and sent to prison. Each time, not only did the guilty person feel tremendous shame for what they had done to hurt family, friends, church acquaintances, and business associates, but their families found it difficult to continue to live their lives due to the embarrassment that they experienced in wondering what to say to people they knew.
A man was successful in business and had a well-educated son who was highly respected and honored, like his father. But one day to everyone’s surprise, the young man was charged with embezzlement. At his trial, he appeared nonchalant and arrogant about his sinful actions.
When the judge told him to stand up for sentencing, he still seemed unrepentant. Then hearing a slight scuffle on the other side of the room, he turned to see that his aged father had also risen. The once erect head and straight shoulders of that honest man were now bowed low with shame. He had stood to be identified with his boy and to receive the verdict as though it were being pronounced upon himself.
Suddenly his son realized the terrible grief he was inflicting on him, and tears welled up in his eyes. He had tarnished the family name by his behavior. Now his poor father was caught in the backwash of his son’s evil deeds, although he had done everything that he could do to keep him on the straight and narrow path. (Copied).
Whenever a person sins, it affects more than the sinner. Because of guilt, that person acts differently. Those who know the person best knows that something is not right. The more one tries to cover up their secret, the more stress they are under in seeking to appear innocent.
All of us have sinned. We know how awful we feel under the weight of conviction. It is in those moments that God’s Spirit is dealing with us powerfully to move us to confess our sin so that He can forgive it. If we do not confess quickly, then we begin to seek to hide that sin deeper in our hearts to keep from bringing it to light. By doing so, our hearts grow more hardened and our consciences are seared if we go too long keeping sin covered.
King David revealed the pain felt in his heart seeking to hide his sin from God…. “When I kept silent (about my sin), my body wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my vitality was drained away as with the fever heat of summer.” (Psalm 32:3-4). Only when we honestly and earnestly confess our sin to God can the cleansing power of God remove our guilt, cleanse our souls, and restore our joy.